To ring in the new year, BTS‘s RM shared a lengthy letter to Weverse on January 1, 2021 KST.
And it has us in all the feels! In the poetic masterpiece, he wrote:
2020 is ending. We all had high expectations for the year, as special as it sounded. But it ended up crushing our dreams. A stage without an audience. The performances without the cheers.
Yesterday and the day before… I sat in the chair inside the studio’s waiting room and kept thinking. How could this be? Could this really be? I guess I do really live in a world where the most nonsense things make sense.
He looked back at the year 2020…
Like a stream of water that flows between boulders, exhaustion and despair came seeping into our lives. And we feel like we have to fight against it — by getting out of our seats. But we’re told over and over to stay where we are, still and stagnant.
So in the meanwhile, I read a lot of books. I tried new things, the online way. I worked out at home. I tried delivery food. Like everyone else, I spent the year doing all kinds of things that I could find possible within the confinement of my room. And it’s still ongoing.
… and shared his cautiously optimistic outlook for the new year.
Time keeps going, in one way or another. We’ve survived the year that felt like an eternity. Now we wait for spring. It’s coming, right? Will this spring be better than the one we had? And we try not to expect anything because we don’t want to be let down… But we’re only human and we can only go on when we hang on to even the slightest bit of hope.
And so I remind myself of the countless people who have offered their love and support for me — even in this blistering winter. I promise myself that I won’t be discouraged so easily. Even when it feels like there is no one, I am listening.
He also explained that while he tried to “more concise” in the letter, he failed because that isn’t who he is.
For this year, I thought I’d try to be more concise and composed in my letter… but seeing from how my thoughts have poured out, I’m not ready to be — like a wise old tree. No matter how hard I try to trim my thoughts down, I can’t stop the words, the imaginations from branching out from the back of my head. And I feel like I have to at least reach out and try sharing… I guess this is simply who I am. I’ve been told by the elders that I’m darned to be this way. “Darned” to go my way until I find myself satisfied. Haha.
RM looked forward to better days in 2021…
These days, I found myself feeling extremely happy when the sky would be clear of fine dust. Even more so than before, I’d say. It feels as if my threshold of feeling happiness has become a lot lower than it used to be. I guess that might be a good thing, since I can find satisfaction in the smallest things now. Oh, how would it feel to hold a live concert in front of you guys right now! It would be a dream come true. This must be the lesson I’m learning this year, for having taken things for granted. In fact, I’m sure we’ve taught ourselves many more, though we may not have realized yet. Let’s hope it won’t take too long before we figure out.
… and thanked ARMYs for having endured through 2020 with him.
The sun is setting beyond the horizon over the roof. To everyone like me, a speck of dust in this universe floating and trying to make something of my existence. To everyone on the outside, trying to swallow us whole with the cold stares and envy. I send this letter. No, 2020 has not all gone to waste.
And though I always come back to the word love, I write and write to tell you how I feel in ways that may be new and better. Thank you all for choosing to stick by my side through the difficult times.
Finally, RM wrapped up the letter reminding ARMYs that life goes on — and that spring will come.
Stay healthy and let us laugh together more. Let us march to a spring that is more like the spring we know. I love you all. Great work this year. I hope we can be of strength to you. Do remember they can’t cancel the spring. Happy New Year!
Ah, what better way to start off 2021 than with RM’s wise wise words?
happy new year from namjoon😁💗 pic.twitter.com/tg5SyLF9Qw
— namjoon pics (@rmarchives) December 31, 2020
Happy New Year indeed.